LY Countdown - 21 days to go ^.^

Oops... looks like I missed a couple of days.

Anyways I can see how long distance relationship can be hard to keep. Gf is away for just about over a week and I already miss her. It's like a body part is missing from yourself; but you feel complete at the same time - I don't know how to describe it, just feels wierd.

I'm calling her regularly using 'her' almost expiring calling card - gotta finish up the credit. Makes me look like an uncaring bf; I mean what kind of bf am I to need to use my gf's calling card just to keep in touch with her. I gotta have my own!

Was in a slight 'debate' on MSN with her about moving out into a new place w/ her bro... wasn't really expecting it. I had a nice image of just me and her in my head when all of the sudden she drops the bomb of a 3rd person (her brother) into my imagination as if it was confirmed. I wasn't too happy - I know, I'm being unreasonable, but I'm sure you'll react the same when a nicely cherished dream (from months ago) is suddenly smashed to pieces.

But nothing is confirmed yet so I might keep that dream; fingers crossed.

Been spending a lot (and I mean A LOT) of time with my housemate - so much that I think it is unhealthy for me. Why? Well, mainly because my housemate is female. I think I've become dependant on her. For some reason, women has always been part of my life; just can't seem to live without them - I love women!!

Hmmm... looking at the last statement makes me look like some type of perverted womanizer or something like that... but back to the point I'm trying to make. I've been cooking with my housemate and enjoying her company - then I suddenly feel guilty; as if I was having an affair behind my gf's back.

I guess I realized that the things I'm doing with my housemate are the things I love to do with my gf... maybe I shouldn't be doing those things with anybody else BUT my gf. I know I'm gonna be in the shits for writing this, cause I know my gf reads my blog; but hey, I'm being honest here. So LY, nothing is going on; just some friendly conversation and cooking!! I'm innocent!! I still love you from the bottom of my heart!!! ^.^

And there you have it, a little glimpse of my pathetic misery within 1 week of my gf out of the picture.