Re-determination

It seems that I can't blog regularly. Been looking at my previous posts and the highest frequency in the last few months or so has been about 1 post a month.

Pretty boring for people who even attempt to read this blog.

I've been wanting to mention this in a post, but whenever I do want to, I find myself being taken over by my fundamental darkness of laziness. I just couldn't be bothered.

Anyways, what I wanted to say is that I never realized that people I know would read this blog and make the connection to me in the real world. I know, it's a bit of naive thinking; but I try to put in as much anonymity as possible. And just oddly enough, I've come upon this newspaper article in The Age (online) that talks about secret bloggers being 'busted'/'outed'.

My point is that I want to make it clear that all my whinging, complaining, slandering along with all the praise and compliments that I make in my blog is an external expression of my thought process. In a sense, it is a bit of a therapy for myself, a window into my soul. Of course I don't expect a goody-goody reaction from anybody who is offended to what I write, so this isn't a plea of clemency from me!

I guess this was a big step for me in creating a blog way back whenever I started. I've never been able to share my thoughts freely in the past. But since making the determination to publicly document my "Human Revolution" (however, infrequent and under-reported it maybe) it clearly helped me changed the way I viewed people.

To be honest, I've (once in a while) chanted so that all my actions as a person will be good so that I don't need to report anything 'bad' into this blog. However, this will never be so. All humans have their flaws, and I feel that we have to share both our flaws, weaknesses and strenghts with those around us. It is by struggling and winning over our flaws that we learn and share with others the way to become more human in this ever growing animalistic society.

I must confess that chanting Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo, having deep faith in Nichiren's Buddhism and participating in the Soka Gakkai activities has helped me develop myself and undergo my own Human Revolution. I do have many 'mini' experience in my life but often I find myself thinking they are insignificant and therefore not worthy of sharing.

However, I realized that this is flawed thinking; sharing my victories little by little allows others to see the logical benefits of my practice. We don't change overnight, nor do babies become adults in one day. Winning in life is a ever developing and growing process of struggles in our daily lives.

So today I re-determine again to share as often as possible my 'mini' benefits that I experience with Nichiren's Buddhism in this blog.

Over and out!