Changi Internet

Here I am again @ Changi International Airport tapping away on my laptop.

I'm on my way back to Melbourne and this time round, I must say teh internets is better!!
I found a spot that required a lan cable (got one) and used that to plug in my laptop. Surfs like a dream...

The last act of holding on to the remnants of M'sia is that I 'ta-pau' a teh tarik into my water bottle on the way to the airport. Now I'm enjoying it right now... hahaha... along with a bar of kit-kat.

What is it that I missed in M'sia? I don't really know... I went to M'sia hating/dreading that place. But delays and postponements after postponements from coming back really kinda make me revised what I thought.

I'm not sure if I hated M'sia because of my mother or because of the impression the country and people has on me when I grew up/vacationed over there during my life time.

Whatever the case, this recent trip has added another notch on the belt of experience. M'sia is a place that somehow has its charms and attraction. And yet it has it's irritations and frustrations and inequalities and disadvantages - but the funny thing is, it is bearable. Sometimes, I truly believe that it is a socialist country trying to be a capitalist.

From it's nasi lemak, roti, pan mien, laksa, nasi kandar and, of course, teh tariks I find humanism and peace. Yes, humanism and peace. It seems that food is the glue that holds this country together, along with its seedy and disgusting underside of inequality. Other than that, it has managed to fatten me up quite a bit. I use to fit in a size 32 jeans with some room to move, but now I find it a snug fit.

I digress...

So peace and humanity in Malaysia - "Malaysia Boleh!" What a catchphrase - I must say I'm proud of my country (or adoptive country - I guess, never really grew up there).

To be honest, I'm torn about where I shall direct my future endeavours. Sensei has stressed the importance of a long term goal. 5 years, 10 years, 20 years, 40 years, 50 years... where do I see myself @ these timepoints. I'm still unable to go beyond 5 years. That's the struggle I face right now. I've decided on some immediate 1-5 years goals, but after that... it still remains a blank.

Suggestions anyone?