New Year's Resolution or A Sense of Purpose

A shower is such a cathartic place to do your deep thinking...

I especially like the hot water drumming down on my face and my back... very therapeutic... I highly suggest everyone to take hot showers, even during summer!

Anyways, back to the shower, I find myself thinking more clearly, as if the water purifies my soul as it cleans me at the same time. Just before I jumped into this "holy" place, I was watching tons of anime. In fact, I've been watching anime like crazy for the past few days; as if I was obssessed with it. The only benefit I gained from all that watching (and I actually came upon this conclusion during my cathartic shower) was that I probably added to the further demise of my myopia. I detract; before I jumped into the shower, I sensed trouble with my girlfriend. It's one of those things, those "uh-oh" moments when you know that you are in deep shit 'cause you have been doing something that pisses her off.

So in my feeble attempt to minimize the impending doom & impact that will fall upon me, I told her that I'll go off to shower (implying that I am taking a break from my anime blitzing). She told me to take a long shower... "Ok... I'm doomed" I thought. But she added that she wanted to call her friend in Malaysia and thus have a sooper-dooper long yakking session without me listening in on the whole conversation. You see, she really treasures her "privacy" (whatever that means - I still haven't figured out what her definition of privacy encompasses in a relationship; well, you know, it's a guy thing ok?) she treasures it so much that any tresspasses upon her supposed fundamental rights for privacy will be met with immediate action without prejudice.

I feebly complained that I don't take long showers (was about to add something about saving water and therefore for the greater good of mother nature I cannot take a long shower) and that I can put on headphones afterwards so that I can't listen in on her conversation. This was when she immediately went into her "lecture" mode for lack of a better description. She told me that I can do better things with my time (other than watching anime as she assumed that I was going to watch anime with headphones on) so that I would not have any regrets in the new year (well that's the summary of her verbal blitzkreig).

And so we finally come to my cathartic shower where my good ole' grey matter started firing up the synapses. What can I do now? I don't have a purpose (or more I "lost" my purpose as I mentioned previously before). I don't really start work until after January 10 as that was when my telemarketing casual job starts kicking in so nothing much to look forward to in the evenings for the next couple of weeks. I've basically stopped being involved in SGI activities for quite a while; so I'm feeling a little bit destabilized. So after a couple of minutes of self reflection I reached a mini eureka moment! In a way it was a rediscovery of my purpose!

I remembered the promise or agreement I made with my girlfriend in regards to a daimoku campaign starting January 01, 2005. What we agreed to do was to embark on a 1 million daimoku competition to see who can reached it first; that's all good and well, but to compensate the lack of study component in our practice, we also decided to read something (an article/chapter/book/whatever) and upon finishing it we would write a one page review. So in the shower, I thought it would be a great idea to combine my blog with this daimoku-review competition. So here it goes, my New Year's Resolution:

1> Start and complete a 1 million daimoku campaign.
2> Read and review books.
3> Keep regular diary entries (ie this blog).
4> Exert myself wholely for Australia kosen-rufu.

So what do you think? Good resolutions? or Bad resolutions? I take for granted that I will probably refine these resolutions later on as they are all pretty general. But with my limited brain-power right now (I am still obsessing over when I can watch the next anime episode, which I am probably going to do after posting this entry) I think these New Year's resolution are fantastic! In a way it has instill upon me a sense of purpose or a sense of working towards a purpose!

I just had a sudden realization the many things that I should have done or should be doing... hmmm... need to get cracking on those things soon enough. Yoooosh!! BRING IT ON!! ^.^