Blank mind...

Been a bit brain dead these past weeks...

Haven't been going to work 'cause there ain't no project for me to work on. Looks like I'm stuck in a rut. Must climb out ASAP. Been making the determination to chant more and earlier, but have been slightly unsuccessful. I've been chanting... the usual amount. Earlier?... Not!

Realized how much I've got to do in terms of things for YAA, things for SGIA, and things for myself. Been a bit lost since I've found out that I might be too late to enrol for a Graduate Diploma of Teaching. My sense of urge to complete it has been diminished to the point that I'm still considering whether I should pursue this pathway or solidier on in finding a research job.

Daimoku is the way! Must remember this! Daimoku first!!! Struggling hard to find sense in this logic... but then, to question faith is like to question the laws of science. Either you believe or you don't believe! If you don't believe then you might very well be in 'disharmony' with the environment around you, ergo you feel shitty and things seems to fall apart.

Bearing this in mind, I guess I've given myself the answer --> Daimoku is the way to 'harmony' with my environment... in other words: esho funi - oneness of man and environment.

I've been downloading tons of stuff off the internet lately - mostly from the PIPE network as it's free from my ISP (iinet). It's been great!! Happy but then last night I suddenly realized what I'm doing is pointless... well... maybe not pointless but definitely value-less or of little value to my life.

MUST CHANT MORE!!!